In A Mood?

I've been reading all the blogs that I always read, but I haven't been in the mood to comment lately. I didn't have much time to read on Saturday and Sunday, so I got kinda behind, and just haven't been in the mood to comment when I do have time to read. I don't feel like I have time for anything anymore. I did empty the dishwasher today and cleaned the bathroom. If I read your blog and haven't commented lately...it's not you, it's me, really! LOL I guess I don't really have much to say? I dunno. Maybe I'm just getting overwhelmed with the amount that I read. I'll try and figure it out and do something about it soon.

Busy!

Saturday was Java's baby shower, yesterday we went to visit family, and then today was a playdate. So when I got home today, my house was in desperate need of some cleaning! LOL But, I was too exhausted to do anything. I put Princess down for a nap and then relaxed and checked my email. When Sailor got off work, me and Princess met him up at Pet Supermarket and got some fish for the tank! Yay! We have 5 new fish...and I don't remember what type they all are. My Mom did my taxes tonight. We usually go to H&R Block, but Mom does everyone else's taxes in the family, so we had her do them this year. We're getting back almost as much as we got last year, but don't have to pay the H&R Block fees, so we're actually getting a lil more! And the best part, she did it all over the phone, so we didn't have to deal with a 2 year old in a small office for like 2-3 hours! We shoudl get our money in about a week and then we can buy a new A/C unit finally! I am DONE with the Clomid, so we get to start trying in a few days! Yay!

Update On Stuff

Day 2 of Clomid, 3 days to go! AF is gone already (VERY light this time!). Just one more week and we can start trying! Yay! I'm so excited! Still no update on Orders, I checked the site last night and nothing has changed. I've decided what I want to do to the garage, just have to wait for money to start working on it. Once we get our income tax return, we're going to buy a new A/C unit (ours is leaking) and repair the water damage. We're going to be replacing the garage door with a sliding glass door. Putting curtains up in front of the glass door, and a curtain separating the laundry area from the rest of the room. We'll also have to put some insulation in and an a/c duct for the room. We're going to be buying a small shed for the backyard to put the lawn supplies and tools in. And we're going to recarpet the house. That's the plan, anyway...we'll see if we're actually able to do any of that! LOL Princess has learned the word "Ta Da!" and started saying it every time she flips, and now she's saying it just randomly as she's dancing around the house. She also copied me while I was driving yesterday (this is why I don't cuss anymore) and she said "What is with people?!". LMAO, it was sooo cute! Then she started just randomly talking and saying "What color is people" or something like that, all I could make out was What, color, and people, I dunno what the other word(s) were. She's such a nut!

Why???

What in the hell is wrong with me? Why do I want more kids when I'm already overwhelmed and exhausted? It's been such a bad day. I wake up to find knives on the counter...again. Sailor and Lawnboy left them on the kitchen counter last night, where Princess could easily reach them. So I gathered up all the knives and put them "away"...neither of them know where "away" is. Then I notice that the oven was left on Warm all night long. Then Princess poured all of her milk out. I'm running late getting ready and discover that the floormat for the van was still hanging in the shower (Lawnboy got dog poop on it last night, so they cleaned it but left it hanging in the bathroom), and the shower rod was moved. So I have to take care of that before I can take a shower. I go to put the mat in the van and there's poop on the carpet, too! Ugh! No way do I have time to clean that, so I leave it for them to clean up. Then we go to TLC, Princess didn't want to sit still, had a meltdown over someone else's cookie, and drove me insane! I'm just very impatient lately and she seems to know all the buttons to push! We get home, eat lunch, and then play til naptime. Naptime rolls around, I put her to bed, and she gets up and plays for 2 1/2 hours before whining to be let out. So no nap today. I decide to take Princess and Naala outside so that Princess can ride her tricycle while Naala gets some energy out. I usually go through the garage and bring the tricycle with me, but for some reason, we all went out the front door and then I walked around to the garage door...before I even got the garage door open, I hear someone honking because Naala AND Princess were in the street! OMG! I almost had a heart attack! I get them both inside, put Naala in the backyard, and then try and calm myself down, when I see Naala run by the window...she's in the front. Apparently she can open the gate enough to squeeze through (the gate is broken). Great! Sailor is finally home...but taking a nap because he has watch tonight. So I get another 2 1/2 hours with my darling daughter before bedtime. She's going to drive me insane. I don't know what I'm going to do when Sailor's gone and I have to deal with her and a baby. I keep trying to remind myself that she'll be older and I'm hoping things will be easier. I know I'm in for a rude awakening.

Sex!

It looks like Sailor gets his wish! He gets off the 4th because it's Saturday (but I'll be out of town for a baby shower, so guess it'll be a late night for us!), he stands watch for a buddy on the 5th, and then gets the 6th off because of the Super Bowl...I guess the day after the Super Bowl is now a national holiday? LOL He still has to work on the 8th, but 2 out of 3 isn't bad, right? Oooh, and that's a Wednesday, I just might be skipping Coffee Night that week. So, does anyone else's hubby get the day after the Super Bowl off? Do the kids have school that day? I'm really curious now.

Today's Consult

My Dr gave me a schedule of when to start my meds, etc, as well as prescriptions for everything. I start the Clomid on Thursday, Jan 26 and take it until Monday, Jan 30. I have sex the 4th, 6th, and 8th of February (yes, my Doctor wrote me a prescription for sex...Sailor wants to know if he can get out of work for that, lol). Then I start the Crinone (Progesterone) gel on Feb 14th, every other night...and go in for a Pregnancy test on the 20th! Wow, it's all feeling so real now.

JC, I'm taking 50mg of the Clomid. When do you go in for your pregnancy test? Fingers crossed for us both, this is so exciting!

Update...

I'm feeling MUCH better today! Still tired, but no cramps today! Yay! The Dr's office called me back this afternoon and my Dr wants to see me for a consult this week, so I'm going in tomorrow morning. I guess it's just to go over everything again and give me more info on the Clomid and all. And, of course, so he can tell me when to start jumping Sailor. LOL

Super Suppers update...we had the Sweet and Tangy Flank Steak tonight. We also had green beans and baked potatoes. It was SO good, but Sailor and Princess didn't like it. This is the meal that Sailor was the most excited about because it's steak, but he didn't like the seasoning. Oh well. Princess loved the seasonings, but doesn't like steak because it takes too long to chew and she likes to wolf down her food. I really liked it, though, and saved the leftovers. Tomorrow night is Orange-Tarragon Glazed Chicken with Herbed Noodles, we're also having broccoli. Yum! I can't wait!

Fishy

Saturday morning, we wake up and Princess goes out to the kitchen, looks at the tank, says "fish, fish" and then gets this concerned look on her face and goes "where are you?". LMAO! It was SO cute! I guess she understands that fish go in the fish tank. Sailor came home from work with donuts (YUMMY) and Lawnboy came over to join us for breakfast. After breakfast, we went shopping for fish stuff! We got some crushed coral for the bottom of the tank (it's a freshwater tank, but we were told that Angel fish like the coral, and we wanted something white for the bottom). On top of the crushed coral, is our colored gravel. We have a section of green, then blue, then red. It's really pretty! We also got some feeder fish to get the tank ready for the real fish (that we're getting this weekend). Java, Sailor and Lawnboy will be responsible for cleaning the tank. Sailor will be teaching Lawnboy everything he needs to know to take care of everything around the house while he's gone. Lawnboy will be getting an allowance soon, too. After we got home, the boys put the tank together and I relaxed while Princess took a nap. Then me and Princess got a shower and Sailor, Lawnboy, and Princess dropped me off at Starbucks for a bunch needed coffee before heading to BUNCO with ScrappinMomma. BUNCO was alot of fun, but the coffee wore off way too quickly. The food was really good and the company was great, as always!

On Sunday, me and Princess met Nana (my Mom) at the outlet mall in St Augustine. We had alot of fun, just walking around and shopping. Nana got some new pillows for her couch and in front of the fireplace, but I didn't really get anything, except some invitations for a friend's baby shower. Once again, I needed coffee to make it home, and the coffee wore off WAY too quickly. I've been SO tired lately, I don't get it. Ugh!

Bring on the MIDOL!

LOL! Guess I'll be calling the Dr tomorrow and starting Clomid in about 5 days! YAY!

Super!

Tonight was our Super Suppers gathering. We met at Super Suppers and prepared a bunch of meals, ate a bit, talked a lot, and then packed up our stuff and went home! I'm so excited about all of the meals I made. I can't wait to start cooking and eating them! While I was gone, Sailor took Princess, Naala, Lawnboy, and E (another neighbor, Lawnboy's friend) to Pet Supermarket...where they bought a 55 gallon tank for Princess. I wasn't upset, but I definitely wasn't expecting it! I came home to a huge tank taking over the counter. And the thing takes up 4 outlets, so my beloved Coffee pot has to be moved. I do like it, and I did want one, but it's a bit bigger than I expected. I'm looking forward to getting the decorations and fish for it, though! He said Princess had a blast looking at all the fish and he had to drag her out of the store. LOL

No More Aygestin!

I just took my LAST Aygestin! Yay! Now I'm patiently waiting for my dear AF to show up. Woo Hoo!

So Much To Do, So Little Money...

So, I want a Florida room on the back of the house, with a doggie door. I want to be able to leave Naala out there when we're not home and know that she can play and go outside, whatever. Since there's no way I can afford that, I want to close off the garage. Our garage is too small for a car, and we have the washer and dryer in there. I've always wanted to close it off and make it an extra room. Since I have to go out there to do laundry, I'd like for it to feel more like inside. I'm thinking that's pretty much out of our budget, too. There's really not much we need out there, just to close it off. We have to redo the carpet for the entire house, so if we closed that off, it wouldn't cost much extra to carpet out there, too. Or we could put tile or something out there, and it's only 1 room, so it wouldn't be that bad. We already have a fan out there, and I'm sure we could put a doggie door up to go into the backyard. Problem is, the cost to put a wall where the garage door is. And if we did that, we'd have to get a shed to put the lawn stuff and tools in. Why can't we just be rich? LOL I just don't have enough room in this house. I have to get rid of my office and have no clue where I'm going to put the computer. Maybe Sailor will buy us both laptops, since money's not an issue or anything! It's silly, I don't even know for sure if he's gonna go to Greece, but I'm stressing out over what needs to be done (or what I think needs to be done) before he leaves. And I'm not even pregnant yet, but stressing over making room for a baby. I'm getting WAY ahead of myself here! Oooh, maybe Sailor's Dad will close off the garage for us, since he's doing all that work on his house and about to sell one of his houses. What a wonderful gift, me and Princess would definitely visit him if he did something like that for us! LMAO! j/k We're gonna visit anyway, but I would love to have my garage closed off.

Update on Orders

You wanna know? You REALLY wanna know? LOL! I just got off the phone with Sailor and he has applied for orders. I told him that I want to stay here so that I'm close to family and friends while he's out to sea, so my favorite pics were stay here or he goes to Greece (Greece orders are for 12 months, without us...but we'd be able to visit). He told me that he doesn't want to stay here and his favorite picks were San Diego and Greece. He asked me what to do, I told him that he has to live with the command, not me, and that it's his choice, but he knows how I feel about it, so at least take what I say into consideration. Anyway, he wanted to talk to his Career Counselor about some questions he had about Greece. He applied for Greece as his first choice, and Mayport as his second choice. So, looks like I'm probably staying here! I'm not sure how long until we know, I think within a couple days, not sure...but am relieved that he's finally applied! Yay! What does that mean for IT school? About 3 months after he gets to Greece, he'll have to start looking at orders and negotiating where to go next. He'll pick orders and then when he gets to his next command, he'll apply for IT school while he's there. So, there's really no telling how long we'll be at the next command. But, as long as he gets one of his two choices, I'll be here for the next year and a half! Yay!

Tag Issues: Update

So, someone from the bank called me a few minutes ago and told me that I don't have to make the trip! Yay! She said that she's going to take care of everything for me (I gave her my tag number so she can just get it transferred), and they're going to just mail me my registration. She said she should have it done by Thursday afternoon and I can put my tag on the car on Monday (which means, I'll be able to get base stickers finally!). Yay! I'm so relieved, I sooo did not want to make that drive twice! Now I just have to sit and wait patiently for two days for her to call me and tell me all is done! Oh, still waiting to hear back from Sailor about orders, I'll post later.

Ugh!

As y'all know, I bought a van while we were in Ohio. I had NO clue it would become such a hassle! The nearest branch for the bank that I financed it through is about an hour away. I've been trying for 3 weeks now to find out what I need to do in order to get a tag and pay the taxes on my van. The money for the taxes is in my Savings Account, but there's a hold on it. So I've been talking to the bank and they keep telling me that they don't have my title. I finally talk to someone today that tells me that they do have my title, at their corporate office, but that's in the same city as the nearest branch. So they're going to have someone bring the title to that branch, I have to go pick it up, sign something, and they'll release the money, then bring it back here so that I can get my tag and pay my taxes. I can only have the title for 48 hours, so I'll have to bring it back to the bank ASAP. Ugh! So Sailor calls during his lunch break and I tell him what I find out and he tells me that I don't have to go to the bank, that the copy of the title that I have should be enough. This bugs the hell out of me because just what am I supposed to do when my husband is telling me one thing and the bank is telling me another? He tells me to call the tag office, so I do. They tell me that I have to have my actual title, not a copy, and bring my vehicle, in order to get the tag. So I call Sailor back, leave a message, and am now planning on going on a road trip with Princess tomorrow to the bank. How fun! And then, in case the first trip isn't fun enough, I have to make another one on Thursday or Friday. Yippee! Why in the hell did no one tell me it was going to be so difficult to get a tag? I already have a damn tag, I just need to get it switched over. I wish the bank here would've approved us, but they claimed that a used vehicle was only worth like 14k...umm there's a difference between a 2005 used and a 1990 used vehicle, why would they have a standard like that? Crazy!

Sidenote...I didn't realize that I could click on the orders and see how many months they were for and whether or not they were accompanied (duh!). I checked yesterday and the orders for Greece are unaccompanied, so I was right, and they're for 12 months...not bad. Sailor's going to talk to his Career Counselor today after lunch.

ABC

Today must be brag about Princess day! LOL Princess led Sailor to the kitchen earlier to play with her LeapFrog phonics thing. She pointed to the I and said "I". He thought maybe it was just a fluke, so asked her about another letter, she got that one right, and then another, and then a number, and more letters. She knows at least half of the alphabet, and their sounds, and all of her numbers 1-10! She got bored with showing off, so she wouldn't tell us all of them, but I took all the ones that she would tell us off of the fridge so she can learn the others, if she doesn't know them already. I have to say, I LOVE LeapFrog! She has 2 LeapFrog DVDs now, Letter Factory and Word Factory, plus the alphabet and phonics fridge thing...they've REALLY helped! I'm so proud of my baby!

Stinky!

Princess looked at me earlier, waved her arm and said "Come on, Stinky". I didn't know what she was talking about, so I just kept drinking my coffee, lol. A minute later, she started grunting, so I looked down her pants, and she had a stinky! So I told her she went stinky and said "Come on" so we could go get a diaper, she went and sat on her potty instead! What a big girl! She went stinky and then went and sat on her potty (fully dressed, of course). She's getting it! I knew she understood when we went potty, but now she really gets it! So I'm thinking that's a good sign, and maybe it won't be long before she's ready to use the potty for real! She's been doing so much better about sitting on the potty for a long time and really likes her potty book and loves to praise Molly (the girl in the book) for going potty. So maybe, just maybe, she's ready...or almost ready. Yay!

Anxious

The longer I have to wait for something, the more nervous/excited I become. I've taken 5 of my Aygestin pills so far...that means I'm halfway done with them! Not only have I been waiting and counting down the days for the past 5 days, but I've been waiting for a year now to get pregnant! The end of January last year I got pregnant and the middle of Feb, I had a m/c. So I've been trying for an entire year now! As most of you know, I like to plan every aspect of my life. I'm a planner and a worrier, I always have been. Anyway, I wanted Princess to be close to 2 when I had my 2nd child, so I started trying right after her birthday last year. That obviously didn't work out, because here I am, 1 year later, and still no second child. Anyway, I'm finally at that point where I can actually relax about it and not stress out and plan (even though by taking the pills, I am kinda "planning"). Princess will be a year older than originally planned, and I'm okay with that (like I have a choice, lol). I've recently realized that things really do happen for a reason. I've always believed in fate, even though I don't understand it, but it was really hard for me to see the reason when I kept losing my babies. I can now look at it through different eyes. Maybe, just maybe, the reason I lost those babies is because I'm meant to have one at a specific time and that time is not here yet. Maybe, those women that can't give birth, already have a child that's perfect for them, just waiting to be adopted. Maybe I'm just reaching and hoping that all of this hasn't been for no reason, but I'm going to believe that when I do finally have my next baby, it will be the one that was meant for me to have. I wish I knew all of the answers to all of the why's, but I don't...I just have to believe that there is an answer. If you're still reading, I'm not religious, and I'm not talking about God here...I really don't know what I believe as far as a greater being, but I do believe in something. Back to my original point, I'm anxious. I'm counting down the days until I can start trying. I'm counting down the weeks until I can start shopping for all the baby stuff that I don't have room for. I'm counting down the months until I can hold my baby. And I'm seeing that Princess is finally ready to be a big sister. She's over her "anti-baby" phase and no longer tries to push babies out of my lap. She doesn't get jealous, and instead is becoming very maternal. She loves to put her babies to sleep and hold them and take care of them, and feed other children. She's going to make such a good big sister! I can't wait! But I will, because I have to. I really don't know if I ever had a point, just was feeling anxious and wanted to get my thoughts out.

Feeling Better

I'm feeling much better now. Thank you all for listening to me vent. It really helps to just get it all out and made it much easier for me to tell my mom and friend via email and phone. I guess I just needed a couple days to just get over it.

Why Blog?

Why is it easier to blog than to send an email? I know who reads my blog (well, kinda), so why is it easier to post a blog entry than it is to email those same people? I guess posting it on the blog is less personal. I'm typing the same things, but am not directing them to anyone in particular. It's weird how much typing out your issues helps, especially when it's something you really don't want to tell anyone. I've had a very odd day today, and when I got home, I didn't want to talk about it. I still don't want to talk about it, which is why I'm not emailing any of you directly! But I'm now able to post about it...I think. We'll see when I get to the bottom and have to decide to Save or Publish. I typed this out when I first got home, I just posted it in Word because I wasn't ready to post here yet (when it's more personal, I type it in Word instead of sharing it). So here's what I posted earlier, and I'll post my update at the bottom (along with why I'm okay with posting it now and couldn't earlier).

Today was an odd day. I had an appt at 2:15 with my GYN. Jaws went with me. We wait for a few minutes and they tell me that Tricare won’t approve me for more visits because I have to be the one to call. What?! Okay, whatever, so I call. They take my number and tell me they’ll call back, but I won’t get my referral today. So I leave and we stop at Publix to get something for dinner before I drop Jaws off. Tricare calls back and has approved me for 10 more visits. So I call my doctor right away to reschedule and they say I can come right in! Wow, that was unexpected! So we head back to the doctor’s office and wait a while. The nurse comes in and gives me a paper sheet and tells me that the Dr wants to do an ultrasound on me. Okay, thought I was just here for a consult, but whatever! So I strip as Jaws hides behind the magic curtain. Woo Hoo! LOL I get my U/S and the Dr tells me that I have a ring of cysts on my ovaries. Apparently he was expecting thing (news to me!). So I find out that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). He gives me a prescription for Aygestin to take for 10 days. After the 10 days, I should get my period and then call my Dr right away to announce the wonderful arrival! LOL Five days after that, he’ll put me on Clomid. When I get pregnant, I’ll start inserting this gel until I’m about 8 weeks along. I was NOT expecting things to go so quickly. So I start making the trek back. I dropped Jaws off at Winn Dixie (Publix didn’t have the formula for tonight, so we decided to just go to Winn Dixie on our way back) and went to CVS to drop off my prescription. Picked Jaws up and dropped her off at her house, then went back to CVS, picked up my prescription, went to McDonald’s to pick up dinner (too late to cook by this point), and finally arrived home at 6:30…5 hours AFTER I left for my original appointment. Whew! I’m so exhausted! I looked up orders online (they got updated today finally) and Mayport is available. But, Sailor has heard bad things about that ship and doesn’t want to go on it. Greece is still an option, so I ask him if he’s still wanting to go. I told him that if he wants, he can go to Greece, but I’m going with him when he goes to Illinois for IT school. So, just waiting til he talks to his career counselor and then we’ll see what’s gonna happen! I sooo hate the waiting!

Why couldn't I post this earlier? It really hit me when I was talking to the Dr today that something is wrong with me. I mean, I've known for MONTHS now that there was something wrong, and I confirmed a month ago that I had low Progesterone, but it didn't have a name, just not enough of a hormone. It didn't seem so...big. But now it has a name, and now I have cysts...it just scared me. I know it's not a huge deal, and my Dr told me it's nothing to be concerned with, but I freaked. I don't want to have a "syndrome". I thought that I'd feel better knowing what the problem is because that means that it's treatable. And now we're going to actually treat it. But it didn't make me feel better, it just scared me. Can't I just ignore the whole "syndrome" part and just focus on the "it's just low hormones, no big deal"? I just can't. I can't ignore the cysts, I can't ignore the "syndrome". I talked it out with Sailor, cried a bit, and then read a funny email. Next step...CAKE! I'm feeling a little better now. I'm sure I'll feel even better after the cake. LOL I'm posting this now because I've talked it out and cried it out and looked it up online. According to what I've read, the symptoms are irregular menstrual cycles (check!), weight gain (okay, I gained weight when I got married, and haven't gotten rid of it, but really, no real weight gain lately, just a pound here and a pound there), and abnormal hair growth (luckily, no!). I also read that "the less symptomatic you are, the better you should respond to medication and treatment."** Okay, since I really only have one of those symptoms, that's good news, right? It's so freaking hard to be optimistic all the time, but seriously, I do try. Anyway, for some reason, reading that (and crying to Sailor) made me feel a little better. Better enough, at least, to post. Now, about the orders, I'm still not ready to talk about them. They're in the same post, but I really don't want to talk about them until I know more. We're not even telling family what's available yet, we're just trying to wait and see what we end up getting. Guess I'm hitting Publish...

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Thank You, Java!

So, anyone notice anything different about my blog? LOL Thank you for all your hard work, Java Mama, it looks GREAT! I LOVE the black background and the new heading and ALL OF IT! I owe you at least a coffee...you gonna make it out to a MNO or Coffee Night anytime soon?

TOO Cute!

Remember that playhouse that we got Princess for Christmas? Well it was in the office, and taking up WAY too much room! Plus Princess kept playing with stuff on our desks instead of inside the playhouse. So, today me and Lawnboy moved it to her room. After dinner, me and Princess went to her room and I showed her how to play with her new Barbie (making her sit in chairs, walking, sleeping). Then I told her to put Barbie to sleep, so she put Barbie on the Barbie bed to sleep and then started getting her babies and putting them to sleep. Then she started getting all of her stuffed animals and putting them to sleep. She'd tell them good night and "shh" with her finger over her lips. It was so cute! While she was putting everyone to sleep, I cleaned up the rest of her room and made her bed. I put her sleeping bag in the middle of the playhouse so that she can lie down with the babies if she wants to. When it was bedtime, I put her on her bed with her Bambi and Floppy and told her she could sleep on the big bed, or the little bed (the crib mattress that's on the floor), or the playhouse, wherever she wants. Then I went back in to check on her about 45 minutes later and she's sleeping in her playhouse with all the babies. It was sooo cute!

Birthday Fun!

After Saturday's party, we took a day off to relax. Sailor worked with his Dad and me and Princess just hung around the house. Yesterday was the actual birthday. We went to the mall playdate and Princess played with her friends (and made some new ones!). Sailor got off work and met us there, complaining that his back was hurting. We stayed and played a little, then went to Customer Service to sign up for the birthday party they're having for their Kids' Club January Birthdays, and they went ahead and gave her a birthday gift (puzzle and go fish cards). Then we went to Chick Fil A for some lunch! After that, we start heading to the parking lot and Sailor's back was REALLY starting to hurt. So he went home and me and Princess went to Toys R Us. They had sent us two $1 giftcards for her birthday...actually they sent them to different names, so I guess Princess has a twin that we didn't know about? LOL Anyway, we go there and they give Princess a balloon and birthday crown. We walk around and decide to get a Leap Frog DVD (Princess seems to like it so far, it's the Letter Factory one). We came home, showed Daddy what we got at Toys R Us (he was laying down) and then Princess took a nap. Someone called at 3:15 and wanted to come by at 4, so I rushed out to go to Walmart before she got there (I didn't want to wait til after she left and I needed to get stuff for dinner). So I rushed to Walmart, got the stuff I needed (they were completely out of Heinz ketchup...how weird is that???) and then went to the gas station. I had put money on a gift card last week and was going to use it to get $.03 off per gallon. I couldn't find my gift card. I remembered putting it in my purse in a place that would be easy to find, but couldn't find it. Ugh! I was already running late and didn't have time, so started heading home. I get about a mile away and find the gift card...right where I'd put it! LOL So I turn around and go back to get gas (I was running really low and didn't want to have to make a trip down there again later). I get there and ALL of the pumps are taken...most were empty just a few minutes ago, but now they're all taken, WTF? So I get behind this car that's empty, thinking he's in there paying, he's almost done, right? I wait for 5 minutes and he STILL doesn't come out. WTF is taking him SO long in there?! I get pissed off and leave. I will NOT be filling up my gift card for gas ANYMORE, it is just NOT worth the hassle of having to go down there every time I want to fill up. Anyway, I'm still low on gas and now my gas light is on. Ugh! Luckily my appt was also running late, so she got here right before I did. Oh, and on the way home from Wal-Mart, I realized that I forgot to get a dessert for Princess! So why exactly did I drive all the way down to Wal-Mart when I forgot the DVD that I was going to take back and I didn't get gas??? I could've just got to Winn Dixie and saved ALOT of time! AND, I wouldn't have been so stressed! I made it through my appt, then started dinner when she left and then went to Winn Dixie for dessert. I took so long there, that the meatloaf was almost done when I got home and we hadn't even started on the potatoes yet! Ugh! We finally made it through dinner (which was GREAT), gave Princess her tricycle (which she LOVES), and Sailor ended up having to go to bed before dessert because his back was killing him. What a day! I ended up going to bed at 10:30, so wasn't able to stay up til 11:45 to give Princess her birth minute kiss. :( Oh well, maybe next year's birthday will be a little less hectic!

Birthday Princess

Tomorrow is actually her birthday, but we had a GREAT party yesterday! We went to Chuck E Cheese and they did an awesome job. It was SOOOO crowded, but it was still alot of fun! Princess wore a cute little Birthday Princess dress and tiara, tights, and ballet shoes (Christmas gift from Jaws and family). We had a long table and then some booths beside the table. We ended up getting the super package to get extra tokens and gift bags and stuff. There were 4 kids...Princess, Dominator, Joshua, and Kimi (my 11 year old cousin). Bing was also there, but he's too young to play. Lawnboy came with us and got LOTS of tickets for Princess! She ended up having 1231 tickets, so we paid the difference ($7.69) to get a Barbie for Princess...her first Barbie! Princess got LOTS of great stuff! Uncle Drew got her a talking Winnie the Pooh book. Nana and Poppy got her this awesome Activity Cart (it does zippers, snaps, buttons, and laces, has a magnet board with ABC's, shape sorter, numbers that flip over and have items on the other side...like 1 bird, or 2 turtles, or something, and the top is one of those things where they have the little tracks and the items that can run around the tracks). Jaws and family got her a Princess bag that can roll or be worn on the back, and the front pocket converts to a doll carrier, and a little purse with nail polish and accessories (time for another girly day! Yay!). My grandma (Nanny) got her a $50 Savings Bond and a folding "Tot Spot" chair. She also got a dress and a 3-piece outfit (she looks so big in some of her pics, that my Uncle thought she was a 4-5t, so she'll have to save that outfit for later!), a DVD, a Dora doll, a My Little Pony, shoes, and a Potty Time Elmo (that will probably have to go back because she wouldn't even let me take it out of the box...I guess she's scared of Elmo). She LOVES her new stuff! Here's a pic of Princess and Uncle Drew (my brother)...


ETA: Princess is no longer scared of Elmo and is currently trying to potty train Elmo.

Soooo Tired!!!!!!!!

Last night was our monthly crop! I only did one page, but did fix a couple other pages and helped a couple others with their layouts...and ate and talked alot! LOL I got home shortly after midnight, I think, and wasn't tired. So I picked up ALL of the clothes that were in the hall and living room, then picked up the other random things lying around and put them away, alot with a bunch of trash (boxes from things we've bought recently, old mail, and other stuff that I just decided to finally part with). Then I had Sailor take all the trash out and I vacuumed the hall and living room. It looks soooo much better! Now that it's completely picked up, I'm definitely going to keep up with it! It's just always hard for me to get the motivation to start a project like that, but once something's clean, it's pretty easy to keep it that way. I finally went to bed shortly after 2:30 in the morning! And what time did Princess wake up? 7:30!!!!!!!!!!! Ugh! I still have to do the dishes, wrap her birthday gifts, finish a little bit of laundry, and get us both clean and dressed before her party...we're leaving at 11ish for her party, so I have...2 hours. OMG, gotta get busy!!!

ETA: It's now 9:45 and the gifts are wrapped, the dishes are done, and the laundry is in the dryer. I'm waiting a few minutes to take a shower and hoping that the clothes will be dry by then. Other than that, I'm done! Yay! I think I even have time for coffee...woo hoo! Off to get some coffee...

Blue's Timeline...

Before Marriage (almost 5 years ago)...


My Wedding (4 1/2 years ago)...


Pregnant with Princess (just over 2 years ago)...



My Birthday (last Summer)...

2005 Year in Review

Stolen from: Java Mama

BEST MEMORY: When Princess learned to say "love you"

WORST MEMORY: My last 2 miscarriages (Feb and Aug 2005)

FAVE SONG OF 2005: Ummm, too many to name, just about every song is my "favorite song"

FAVE MOVIE/DVD of 2005: I have no clue!

FAVE NEW TV SHOW(s) of 2005: Related?

FAVE MUSIC CD of 2005: I never buy CD's.

FAVE BOOK I READ in 2005: Thanks to the Book Club, I've read lots of new books that I never would've read! I loved all of Jennifer Weiner's books.

FAVE NEW FOOD in 2005: Meatloaf! I liked it before, but last year, I started making it sooo much and LOVE it!

MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS in 2005: Finding out what's wrong with my body, forming a stronger bond with Sailor, being a good mommy to Princess.

MY HOPES/WISHES for the NEW YEAR, 2006:
That my family and friends stay happy and healthy all year long! (ditto Ali and Java)
That Sailor is able to quit smoking (his resolution)!
That we get the house ready to sell and make a good profit on it!
That we get good orders!
That we get pregnant, have a successful pregnancy and a healthy baby!

FAVE NEW WEBSITE of 2005:
http://jpl.coj.net
How sad is that? My favorite website is the library! LOL I just joined in 2005 and have definitely made good use out of my library card!

Why Me?

I'm in a "Why Me?" mood. I seem to get in those WAY too often lately! Right after my first miscarriage, I found out that Sailor's friend's wife was pregnant. I can not stand her! She's just annoying and irresponsible and I just didn't like her at all. I was so pissed that she was pregnant and didn't get why I lost mine and she got to have one. After that, I found out that I was pregnant with Princess. Our babies were due 3 weeks apart, but her daughter was a week early and mine was 8 days late, so they were 5 weeks and 1 day apart. Anyway, we talked while we were pregnant because we were due so close together. But after the babies were born, back to hating eachother. Anyway, I just found out that she's pregnant again. Ugh! Every time that I've been trying to get pregnant or have gotten pregnant, I've been worried that she's going to get pregnant, too. I do NOT want to be pregnant with her again. I wanted to try and get pregnant this month, but we don't know if and when we're moving yet, and I haven't started my Clomid, so it definitely won't be this month. Anyway, now I don't want to be pregnant with her, but I'm still really pissed that she's pregnant when I was wanting to get pregnant. I'm also gaining weight, all my pants are starting to get tight and I feel like crap. I ate way too much junk when we were in Ohio, but I normally don't do that at all. I rarely ever have junk food...I do eat my fair share of fast food, but no junk food in the house. Guess I need to start working out. I HATE exercise. Maybe I could just go to the mall everyday and walk. Can't I just trade my body in for one that works (and is skinny!)???

Happy New Year!

Happy 2006, Everyone!

We went out to dinner last night, and they told us the wait was gonna be 40-50 minutes. So Sailor decides to drive home to get his "fish food" and cell phone. He took Princess with him so that I didn't have to deal with a bored and squirmy toddler while I waited. Well, it didn't take 40-50 minutes...it took like 15-20 minutes. LOL I sat at the table and called Sailor and he was just leaving the house. Ugh! So I ordered a meal for Princess, so she wouldn't have to wait, and ordered our appetizers and a margarita for myself. Sailor and Princess arrive...and Princess is passed out! LOL She fell asleep in the van and didn't want to wake up when Sailor took her out, so she slept in the booth most of the time we were there. She did wake up to eat some grapes and had a little bit of the bread from her burger, and maybe 2 fries, and drank all of her milk. She's usually a much bigger eater, but I guess she just didn't want to be awake to eat. We ate our meals and I was too stuffed for dessert. We went to Wal-Mart for diapers and then got gas and went home. Princess slept the entire way home and didn't even wake up when Sailor put her to bed! That is sooo not like her, the van must be alot more comfortable for her than the car was! We sat outside and watched fireworks for a few minutes, then just came in and relaxed til midnight. Princess woke me up at 8am...and one of her earrings is missing! I searched her room and couldn't find it, but I did find the back of it. I'm so bummed, those were the earrings that they used to pierce her ears...almost 2 years ago! I was really hoping to save them.

Sailor's New Years Resolution is to quit smoking. I don't normally do resolutions, but I would like to get more organized and get the house ready to sell. What's your New Years Resolution?

Oh, I added pictures of our Christmas to my last post.