I'm Back!

Last Monday (12-19), Sailor and Lawnboy took the car to get the tires rotated and the oil changed and then me and Jaws and Princess went shopping. Apparently the car needed alot more done ($2500 worth), but we decided to put it on hold til we could afford it. I spent my Old Navy giftcard and got 2 long-sleeve shirts and a pair of jeans, we went to Victoria's Secret and I got a free Angels lace panty (woo hoo!) and bought a gift card for Bill's cousin. Then we got our coffee and headed home. Sailor was impatiently waiting for us when we got home, so we finished packing up the car, went to Texas Roadhouse for dinner, then got on the road! We ended up making it through Georgia and about halfway through Tennessee when we finally decided to just stop and rest for a bit. We got a hotel room (what a waste...we used it from like 4 or 5 til 9am) and got some sleep. Then we got up, got some breakfast, and back on the road! Princess was miserable, she barely slept at all in the car! We made it to Grandma and Grandpa's house at about 5:30, had dinner, visited, and then went to bed.

The next day, Wed (12-21), we went shopping at the big Tiffin mall! LOL, there was 1 department store in the entire mall, plus a Claire's, Radio Shack, Hallmark, and a jewelry store...crazy! Anyway, we bought Princess a cute winter jacket with a hood and matching mittens. I bought myself a new purse because my strap was starting to break. After that, we went across the street to Wal-Mart. Sailor got some new long-sleeve shirts, some boxers and socks (yep, you guessed it, I didn't pack for him, so he forgot boxers and socks!). We got Princess some undies (they were really cheap and we're going to try and potty train soon) and a DoodlePro to play with in the car. Then we headed back to the house, put Princess down for a nap and relaxed for a bit. It was Bill's aunt's birthday, so her and her husband came over for dinner and cake.

Thursday night was Princess's birthday party and Grandma wanted us out of the house, so we went to Fremont (Sailor's uncle, that came over the night before, works at a dealership there) to look at vans. We drove a Chevy Uplander first and I really liked it, but wanted to look around some more. We got Sailor's uncle to drive us down to their Dodge dealership (it was one of those dealerships that has several different locations for the different makes, etc) and we drove a Dodge Caravan (or Grand Caravan, not sure, didn't pay attention). I wasn't too crazy about it. It had the stow-n-go, which is what I really wanted, but it wasn't enough to make me want it. It just didn't excite me. So we went back to the Chevy place and talked to them and they told us that there was a 2005 Pontiac Montana SV6 at their Tiffin location. We didn't really want a new vehicle because they depreciate so quickly, a 2005 would've been perfect. It's the exact same as the Chevy Uplander but a year older, had 8600 miles on it, and was a Pontiac. We went to Tiffin and drove it and I LOVED it! We went back to the house, got ready for the birthday party, and had a great time. Princess got lots of great stuff (baby doll, big stuffed dog, some toys, etc).

Friday morning, we got up and went back to look at the Montana again and I still wanted it. So we drove it to Fremont (they wanted Fremont location to get credit for it because that's the one that Bill's uncle works at) and spent ALL day there! We got the approval for the bank, they accepted our crappy car and gave us $8k for it (we still owed $10.3k, but it has a key scratch all the way down the driver side, and we still would've had to pay $2500 out of pocket for all the mechanical stuff when we got home anyway), so we bought the van! When we got back to Grandma and Grandpa's house, Princess was passed out, so we loaded Grandma and Grandpa into the van, let Princess sleep, and went driving around to look at Christmas lights. When we got home, Bill's cousin called and invited us over to watch a movie. We went over and they brought down their extra tv for Princess to watch Nemo while we watched American Pie: Band Camp with Bill's cousin (Stacey), her husband (Matt), and Stacey's sister (Jenny).

Saturday was Christmas Eve and Jenny's birthday (Jenny and Stacey's mom is the one that had a bday on Wed). We didn't do much during the day, just kinda relaxed and then went over their at about 5 for dinner and gifts. We did the exchange, Stacey liked her VS giftcard and said she needed perfume (I'm sure Matt was hoping for sexy undies, oh well, lol!). Uncle Roger (the one that helped us with the car) liked the stuff that Sailor got him. I got some really pretty fish Goblets and Sailor got a Kenny Chesney CD...Sailor hates Country, so I guess it's my CD now! Princess got a BUNCH of stuff! She got coloring books and crayons, a Mr Potato Head and friends (carrot and corn), a baby doll, a stuffed bear, etc. Then we did a White Elephant exchange. I ended up getting a container of fudge and other sweet goodies, Sailor got a snowman (again, for me, I LOVE snowmen!), and then everyone else gave Princess the items that they got. It's a good thing we bought that van, I don't think we would've made it home with all that stuff! Princess sat with Matt all night to open gifts and wouldn't eat when I tried to feed her, but ate almost all of Stacey's mac n cheese! She just LOVES Matt, she's such a little flirt. He's alot like Sailor, same sense of humor and personality, maybe that's why she bonded with him so quickly. We went home, put Princess to bed, and put out all the Santa stuff, then relaxed a bit.

On Christmas Morning, we got up at about 8:30, got some coffee, and opened presents. Princess got her Cinderella costume with wand and tiara, 4 DVD's (Wiggles, Cinderella, Cat in the Hat, and Grinch), an Activity Table (that she opened early so she'd have something to play with the whole week we were there), some clothes, books, jewelry, etc. I got a bunch of scrapbooking stuff, and 6 DVD's (Perfect Man, Little Black Book, Dukes of Hazzard Unrated, Bewitched, Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, and Christmas with the Kranks). Sailor got a shirt, tie, belt, khakis, black socks, Butterfly Effect DVD, Grand Theft Auto: Liberty City for PSP, and 4 tshirts. And then the van, of course, for all of us. We ate breakfast and relaxed for a bit and then went back to Aunt Sue and Uncle Roger's house for the rest of the day. Uncle Roger's family was there this time, so there were other kids to play with (Princess is the only kid in both mine and Sailor's families). After the other kids left, I took Princess home and let her play and watch tv while I packed up most of our stuff. It didn't really feel like Christmas, it was kinda boring. Christmas Eve was so much fun and then Christmas day was kinda dissapointing. Jenny had to work, Matt and Stacey left shortly after we got there to go visit his grandpa, and I didn't know Uncle Roger's family. Sailor, Grandma, and Grandpa got home at about 8 and it was snowing finally! There was snow on the ground when we got there, and it started to melt on Christmas Eve, but it finally started snowing on Christmas Night! Yay! I had just put Princess to bed, so Sailor went and got her up while I put my shoes on and we went outside and danced in the snow! We put Princess back to bed, and I went to bed shortly after, I was so tired!

Monday morning, we slept in and then got up and finished packing. We had breakfast and then hit the road! We got about halfway to the interstate (Tiffin is about 30-40 miles from the interstate) and I remembered that we forgot all of our bathroom stuff, so we turned around and went back. We finally got some food and got on the interstate and noon and headed south! I drove all the way through Ohio and Kentucky and then we stopped in Tennessee for dinner. After dinner and gas, Sailor drove through Tennessee and half of Georgia and then he was tired, so I took over and drove to Lake City, FL and then we switched again and he drove to Ocala. Luckily Princess slept much better in the van, and actually got about 10 hours of sleep during the drive! We picked up the truck from his parents' house and then headed home finally! We got home at about quarter til 9 in the morning. Lawnboy was here when we got here, so he helped us unload the van and then Princess opened the rest of her gifts. She got a Playhouse (that Lawnboy set up for us while we were gone, some Leggos, and some other little toys. Then I took a nap and Lawnboy left. After my nap, Sailor took a nap and then me and Princess got lunch, I put her down for a nap, contacted GEICO, cleaned the bathroom, and then Sailor got up. Lawnboy came back over, we had some dinner and watched Christmas with the Kranks.

Note to my friends: I have read your blogs, all of the pics y'all posted are adorable! I'm not commenting because I don't have time to comment on all of the posts from while I was gone. JavaMama, Congrats! That was my guess from the beginning, but I changed my vote because of your u/s and Husker's prediction. Guess I should change it again? LOL Oh, and don't you still have an infant carseat? I still have Princess's infant carseat, so I'll be using it again, but if I didn't, I'd just go with the convertible.

Merry Christmas!

Since we'll be in Ohio for Christmas, we woke up and pretended it was Christmas at my parents' house yesterday morning. Me and my Mom made monkey bread the night before (thanks for the recipes, Java Mama!), and then we all woke up, opened gifts, and had monkey bread and scrambled eggs for breakfast. Yumm! Princess got a Nemo activity book, a cute little pink overall outfit, a jacket, some puzzles, and some webkin thing (we haven't looked it up to see what it is, but I think it's some virtual pet thing for the whole family). I got an Old Navy giftcard, some jammies, a 12" Cutterpede, a singing Christmas Cookie Monster, and a really pretty pewter dolphin thing to hang from my rearview mirror. Sailor got a Led Zeppelin DVD set, a Lynard Skynard shirt, and some jeans.

Yesterday was also our Christmas gathering with my Mom's family. We draw names every year since there are so many of us, and then exchange gifts the week before Christmas. I didn't want to participate this year, so I volunteered to hand out the gifts. Princess got the Heffalump movie DVD and the Little Einsteins Huge Adventure DVD from one of my uncles (he drew her name). She was sooo excited about the Little Einsteins! She was carrying around the DVD case and talking about them all day! It was so cute! Poppy (my Dad) finally put it in for her and she LOVED it! She also got 2 cute little outfits and a baby doll from Nanny (my grandma) and she got a music box and a beautiful hand-made personalized bracelet from my aunt!

It was a pretty good (and LONG) day! We got home at about 11 last night, I checked my mail, then went to bed. Today I have to pack, shop, and wrap Sailor's gifts. Sailor is getting the tires rotated and the oil changed on the car. And then tonight, we're leaving for Ohio! I hope everyone has a VERY Merry Christmas!

What You've All Been Waiting For...

My results! Finally! I do have low progesterone, like we thought. When we decide that we're ready to start trying, I just need to call him and go in to start Clomid and then after I'm fertile, we start supplementing with progesterone. All my other results have been great, so this is all we have to worry about. YAY! I'm so ready, now just have to wait til Sailor's ready.

ALL DONE!

I wrapped all of Princess's gifts today! Woo Hoo! I still have to wrap Sailor's gifts (and still need to buy him a couple more things), and have to buy and wrap the gifts for his family in Ohio. I also have to buy one more thing for my aunt and wrap her stuff. I'm so excited! I'll buy my aunt's gift tomorrow, and maybe find some more stuff for Sailor. I'm almost done buying stuff for Princess's birthday, too. I need to buy her a couple DVD's (although she has plenty of stuff set aside for that already, so if she gets those from someone else, I'm done!). I also need to buy the party favors for her party (which is planned! woo hoo!) and I want to buy her one of those Birthday Princess dresses. I'm so relieved to have so much done already!

Patience...

is not one of my traits. My results are in, I called my doctor's office earlier to check, and am waiting on my doctor to call me with them. Waiting very impatiently, I might add. About every 5 minutes, I check the clock and whine about how anxious I am. Hurry up, already!

Bummed

Sailor called and told me that he finally got ahold of his detailer and career counselor. He can't crossrate until a year before his enlistment is up (so he'd be able to go to school in 2 years because his enlistment is up in 3). He has to pick orders NOW and his options are Greece, Washington State, and San Diego. I was really looking forward to staying here for another year (the place is finally growing on me and I have to leave...of course, right?) while he went to school. I was really looking forward to him getting to do a job that he likes. But, no such luck. This sucks. I don't wanna move now! We'll be moving in the summer, I guess, probably to San Diego. I'm so disappointed. I guess the decision's been made, though, the Navy says I have to wait til the end of the summer to get pregnant. We don't want to move when I'm pregnant and have to find another doctor and all, especially given my problems. If I wasn't high risk, it wouldn't be an issue for me, I'd be fine with finding a new doctor mid-pregnancy. This really sucks. I hate bad news! I'm really gonna miss everyone, too. And now when I do get pregnant, I'll have absolutely no support. Who's gonna watch Princess while I'm in the hospital? Who's gonna keep me company when I'm bored out of my mind? Who's gonna go shopping with me?

Up and Down

I'm so moody lately! I really thought I'd be happier to be finally getting the results (any day now) to all my testing, but I'm kinda dreading it. I just feel like once I get the results I'll be forced to make a decision on when to start trying. I know that's not the case, no one is forcing me...well, except myself. I haven't talked to Sailor yet about what we're going to do. Things are so up in the air right now with his job and we have no idea where we'll be in a few months. I'm just so bummed that I can't just relax and not think about it and let it happen. I know what the results of my testing are gonna say...I need to take progesterone in order to keep a pregnancy. I really have no doubt about that. I obviously don't want to take the stuff if I'm not actively trying to get pregnant, but we've always had a more relaxed approach at "trying". I've always tried to keep track of my cycle, but that's really hard with it being so irregular. And I'm dreading the waiting to find out if it worked and getting depressed if it didn't. I just sometimes wonder if it wouldn't be best to just stick with the one we have and not worry about it. But Sailor wants a son and in my heart, I do want more than 1 kid...it's just hard to push myself to go through all that I have to go through to get it. I know some have to go through much more, and I feel bad for being depressed about my situation when I know that it could be worse. I have such a busy week this week and I feel like just staying home and not doing anything. Too late for that now, though, I've already committed to stuff.

Ooooh Ahhhh

One of my favorite things to do is drive around and look at Christmas lights while listening to Christmas music, and saying "oooh ahhh" at all the lights! Princess is now old enough to join in! We went looking at lights last night. Princess absolutely LOVES all the lights and was ooohing and ahhhing with me! It was so cute! We looked at a nearby neighborhood, then went to Arby's and got some food and looked around a few more neighborhoods while we ate. Lawnboy came with us and had never had Arby's before! LOL Once he had it, he was wondering why he'd never had it before. We had so much fun! We're gonna go and look at a few more neighborhoods sometime this week. I just LOVE Christmas!

WOW! What a day/night!

Sorry for keeping y'all in suspense for so long, but Sailor called me with the results while I was on my way to my pedicure appt and when I got home, it was time to go to the Christmas Party. He got an 87! He can be any job in the Navy with that score! So what next? He has to TRY to get ahold of his detailer (not an easy task!) and get him to release him from picking orders. After that, he has to take a few online courses (no big deal there, pretty easy stuff). And then 100 hours of on the job training. After that, 1 year of IT school in Great Lakes. WOOO HOOO! I'm sooo proud of him! He doesn't normally test well, and I expected him to get a good score (he got a 63 when he took the test 7 years ago and needed a 64 to be an IT), but an 87?! That's awesome! So, we had something to celebrate on our night out!

When I got home from my pedi/hair appt, Lawnboy was here and Sailor was getting dressed, so I got ready and we left. We were a bit late because my appt was so late and took so long, but I didn't care! Why rush to get there? There were 3 Navy Christmas Parties at the Hyatt last night. 3! Talk about crowded! There was a line to turn in our tickets and a line to buy drink tickets. What???? They seriously made us buy drink tickets and tell them what we'd be drinking and then we had to go wait in another line to actually get the drinks! I wasn't too happy about that! I guess it's so the bartender didn't have to handle any cash? I dunno, but it wasn't like that last year. One of the other parties that was there had an open bar, and I had to pay $6 for 1 glass of wine! Ugh! Anyway, other than the whole drink thing and the boring food (it's always boring, so no surprise there!), it was a great night! There was a hypnotist there. OMG! I'd never seen one of those shows before, but it was the funniest thing I have EVER seen! Sailor tried to get hypnotist, but it didn't work on him. The men had to give birth (OMG, their faces and grunts, soooo funny!) and the women were their nurses. They were all so serious, it was hilarious! Then they all breastfed their babies. After that, the hypnotist had the men bounce their babies on their knees (the women were all sooo worried at this point!) and then throw them in the air! But the babies didn't come back down. It was sooo sad, the men were crying over their babies! One man had twins, by the way. They finally were able to see their babies and talk them down from the ceiling. They also lost their butts and couldn't sit in the chair (and had to beg an officer to give them their butts back...I thought they were gonna pound the guy!). They all thought the audience was naked, too, and this woman starts yelling at her husband, sooo funny! This one guy was hiding behind a chair saying he was too young to see all of that! LOL That same guy thought he was Elvis later and started singing to us (and did a good job!). They thought they were in the Kentucky Derby and had to stay in their chairs and slap their own asses and yell "Who's Your Daddy!". When he'd switch from one thing to the next, he'd put them all to sleep and they'd be all tangled together, it looked pretty crazy! I'm surprised that some of the wives didn't get psycho jealous about their husband's head on some chick's lap or chest. LOL I ended up seeing that girl, that yelled at her husband for being naked, in the bathroom. She felt really bad for it (he made them all remember everything as soon as they left the room). She said she just didn't understand why he was naked and just laughing at her like it was no big deal. LOL It was such a fun night! We were soooo tired when we got home! I don't think I've ever laughed so hard in my life. Lawnboy was asleep when we got home, so I woke him up, paid him, and Sailor took him home. He said Princess did really good, but didn't want to go to sleep (big surprise there! lol). He's such a good kid, I wish we could keep him! He's the only teenager I trust to watch Princess, and she just LOVES him!

Sooooo Excited!

Sailor took the ASVAB this morning and I was thinking it'd take weeks to get the results back, but he should get them in 2 hours! So we should know today if he's going to be going to IT school for a year or stressing to pick orders before deadline (like a month and a half). I'm so hyped up now! I've been feeling all anxious all morning, it's almost like I was the one taking the test! LOL I've been trying to distract myself all morning but that's all I can think of. I haven't even had a shower yet! I've just been waiting for him to call me to tell me he's done (he just called a few minutes ago, and told me he thinks he did good and should get the results in 2 hours). Tonight is his Christmas Party, so I'm really excited about that, too. I'll be getting a pedi at 3:15 and then getting my eyebrows waxed and my hair cut. After that, I'll be rushing home to get dressed so we can go! It's gonna be such a great day! I'll update when I get the results, so check back!

Meeting (and other stuff)

I went to LadyBug's today for a meeting with her and Marge about JNB. We got alot accomplished! Princess had fun playing and eating and watching tv. We went over all of the playgroup files and revised some files and added a few new files. We changed the calendar, discussed memberships, and figured out what our different leadership roles are. It went great! LadyBug was all organized and had a bunch of stuff printed out for us to start with, and had food for us. I left feeling much happier about JNB than I have in the past! LadyBug, thank you so much for hosting us and feeding us! Thank you both for all of your help!

On the way home, I looked back at Princess and she was covering her eyes and counting. Then she'd uncover them and start talking and point...I think she was playing hide and seek! LOL It was so cute! I don't remember her exact words, and I couldn't understand all of them, but I think she was playing hide and seek. With what? I don't know...maybe the trees? It was while we were on the bridge. Weird girl!

There's nothing I really care about watching on TV tonight, so I figured I'd get started on my Christmas Cards (I got the pictures in the mail from Snapfish yesterday). So I go to my storage box that I keep the cards and gift wrapping supplies in...and we don't have any cards! I thought I got them last year at the day after Christmas sales, but I guess I didn't go shopping last year. I have some cards leftover from the last 3 years, as well as some mixed leftover cards that Sailor's parents gave me (they don't celebrate anymore), but no new cards! So guess I need to go buy some. I was all excited about getting a start, too! Oh well.

Oh, update...I feel much better today. I'm not bleeding anymore and feel normal (well, normal for me, that is). But now we have to decide if we're going to try for another right now. I know it seems silly to go through all this work and then change my mind, but everything was so carefully planned and now it's all screwed up. I wanted our kids to be close in age, so we started trying right around Princess's first birthday...and I got pregnant right away. Then lost that baby and got pregnant again in July, and lost that one. So if I get pregnant next month, I'm a year behind and my calendar's not looking as good this year! If Sailor is able to change rates, he'll be going to school and I don't know if I'm going with him or not. If he doesn't change rates, we'll be moving next summer. So if I get pregnant now, I'll either have to move during the pregnancy or have the baby without Sailor. I just don't know. I'm glad we went through this, though, because even if it isn't the right time, at least when we are ready again, we can start right away instead of testing for 3 months first.

The Dreaded Procedure

It wasn't near as bad as I expected it to be! I took 4 extra-strength Tylenol at 9:30 and it didn't hurt at all! It did make me bleed a little, but that's no big deal! I'm feeling a little crampy now, but it's nothing, not even as bad as mild period cramps. I should get my results in about 7 days, it should tell us if my body is making enough Progesterone...which we both think is the problem. If the results are what we think they will be, we can start treatment right away! Yay! Problem is...where will Sailor be in 10 months? We have no clue if we'll be in the state, or even if we'll be in the same state as eachother. I'm not too concerned. It'd really suck to deliver without him, but maybe they could fly him here for the delivery or something. Anyway, I'm not worried about that, or even about if we get pregnant right away or not, just glad that we're getting somewhere instead of dragging our feet and taking our time!

Type 4

The Sensitive, Withdrawn Type:
Expressive, Dramatic, Self-Absorbed, and Temperamental

Basic Fear: That they have no identity or personal significance
Basic Desire: To find themselves and their significance (to create an identity)

To My Loyal Readers...

Merry Christmas!

Busy Santa-filled Morning!

This morning was Breakfast with Santa at the mall...at 8:30am! I'm sooo not a morning person, and being dressed by 8:30 is a major accomplishment for me, but I made it and was only 10 minutes late (on only 4 hours of sleep and no coffee, at that!). We had preregistered, so we went and got our goody bag and found a seat. It was kinda boring. They had breakfast (Chick-Fil-A), but a really long line, so I didn't bother. I got a Peppermint Mocha Hot Chocolate (unexpected because I asked for a regular hot chocolate), and it was pretty good! I didn't expect to like it, but it was good! Princess saw Santa, but he was so busy, that we didn't get a chance to talk to him. She was so cute, pointing to him and saying "Look, it's Santa! Hi, Santa!" and waving. We left there about an hour before it was supposed to be over so that we could head to a Winter Wonderland thing. We met Jaws and her family there and went in. They had a raffle (I won a toddler bed!) and we got to shop with our baby bucks. I had $93 in baby bucks (you get baby bucks for doing different things and save them up throughout the year with this group we're in). With my $$, I bought a Potty Time Elmo, a play microwave, some stacking blocks set, a Snow White Dress-up set, and some activity table that has sooo much stuff on it, Princess loves it! She hasn't seen all of it, it's all for Christmas, but I showed her the activity table to see if she'd like it and she wouldn't put it down! I still had all of my scrapbooking stuff in the trunk from last night, so it was quite a tight fit to get all that stuff in there! LOL It was a pretty good morning and I'm about ready for some coffee now!

Great Night!

Last night was our monthly crop, we really should have those more often! All in favor? Stampy came over and rode with me to meet Scrappin Mama. Scrappin Mama was nice enough to drive all of us! Thanks, Scrappin Mama! We picked up ChinaMom and then Cubanita and all headed to Java Mama's for some scrapbooking! I got 4 pages done, two 2-page layouts! Yay! We all had alot of fun, and talked eachothers' ears off! LOL We had some pizza, Stampy's famous brownies, and ChinaMom's cookies! Yum! We all had so much fun, thanks for hosting, Java Mama!

Yuck!

I hate this weather! My lips are chapped and my nose is stuffy. I wish it was 70-80 degrees all year round here.

People Piss Me Off!

Anyway, there's this guy that works with Sailor. He has one of those charming personalities so you can't help but like him...and then he does something stupid. I used to get so mad at him, and then I'd see him, and forget all about it. It drove me crazy that he could have that affect! I wasn't attracted to him or anything like that, but I really cared about him as a friend and he was just such an ass! His wife is psycho and jealous of EVERYONE, they would get in these terrible fights and she'd yell and cuss and hit him in front of their son! He let her walk all over him. Anyway, in June they finally split up. She went to Texas (where her family is) and took the boy with her. He started dating someone that he works with and then he let her walk all over him, too! She's a really sweet person, but if one person in a relationship lets the other win all the time, they're gonna take advantage of it...I've been on both sides of that before I figured out the whole 50/50 thing! Anyway, they split up a couple months ago and he got back together with the psycho wife. She searched his phone bill and found 2 phone calls from the ex-girlfriend and freaked out (if they work together, isn't it possible that they might need to talk to eachother from time to time? And twice in a month...not much of an affair!). She called the shop to announce she was coming in and then she walked in and had a meeting with the Khakis. She told them that her husband was cheating on her with this girl (which could get him kicked out of the Navy) and was causing a big scene. The bosses didn't bite, they knew what was going on. So she basically just tried to ruin her husband's career...and he didn't do anything! The guy has no balls. He was hiding while his wife was trying to get him kicked out of the Navy instead of just stepping up and explaining the situation. Idiot! Anyway, we thought he was a friend the whole time, and even let him stay with us when his wife left him in June. And what does he do? Stabs my husband in the back and talks shit about him so that he could be supervisor. I guess something good did come out of it all, though, because now I know what kind of person he really is. No more forgiving him this time! This happened a while ago, I don't know why I'm blogging about it now, guess it was just getting to me. There are other people (too many, probably) that I've had in my life before that just have magnetic personalities yet I really don't like them...it's just hard to see that when I'm with them. It's funny what opens your eyes to some people. I had this boyfriend when I was 16 that was a total jerk and used to beat me...yet I did nothing! I let him blame me for it every time and didn't see him how he really was until I caught him lying to me about something stupid. Why did I leave him over the lying and not the beating? Who the hell knows! LOL Guess I'm a little slow sometimes.