Moving Update

We've been busy! It's been so hard to pack and move while trying to make sure we don't pack anything we need until the last minute. We've also had to sort everything into 5 different categories (put in storage, go with Sailor, go with me, throw away, sell). It's been a very stressful move! Our status now? Princess has no furniture. Her bed and house are in storage, as well as her dresser...and we gave away her tv. She's very distraught over all of this. She keeps saying "watch a movie? it's gone!", referring to her tv. She also keeps asking where her house is. I feel so bad for her! It's gonna be very tough sharing a room with her since she's been in her own room since 10 weeks. My brother is looking for an apartment and I don't want to rush him out, of course, but I would love for Princess to have her own room...and, of course, she won't have that until he moves. When he moves out, I'll be able to give Princess back her bed and house...I know she'll be excited! I know that sounds a little selfish, but can you imagine sharing a room with an independant 2 1/2 year old and a newborn? We also put the 65" and the 27" tv's in storage, as well as Princess's bed frame (she hasn't been using it, it's been under my bed cuz it's so tall), our China, our couch (huge sectional with 2 recliners and a queen-size pull out bed...that was fun!), our freezer, one of Princess's bookcases (I'm taking the other with me), and mine and Sailor's dressers. What's left? The kitchen! That's been last because we've been afraid to pack the stuff up and then need it. I also have made one trip to unload the van at my parents' house with toys and clothes and will be making another tomorrow morning to unload more clothes, the crib, baby stuff, etc. After that, I'll pack up the rest of the stuff that's going with me and put it in the van and bring it on Sunday. Other than the kitchen, just our bed and the office is left. We're both getting laptops next week so that I won't need to bring my big desk and computer with me, I'll just bring a small stand that has a file drawer in it. We still have alot of packing to do, but it's mostly dishes and smaller items...although, that is the hardest part. Our goal is to have everything out of here by Sunday...Monday at the latest. On Monday, we'll be getting the money from the bank, ordering our laptops, buying the carpet and flooring, and paying off some credit cards. After that, we'll buy some paint and get started on painting and ripping the carpet out. How we're going to do this with Princess around, I have no clue. I'm kinda hoping it'll just work out. Right! Once the painting is done, the carpet will be getting installed and we'll be putting down the flooring in the bathrooms, foyer, and kitchen. And then, we're done! Hopefully all of this can get done by this time next week so that we can have the house listed by the 1st of July. Hopefully. Wish me luck and as little stress as possible, please!

22 Weeks!

I'm 22 weeks now! I can't believe how fast this pregnancy is going! I'm getting pretty big, but I haven't gained too much weight yet, I don't think. At my last appt, it was only 10 lbs, but that was 3 1/2 weeks ago. My next appt is the 29th. Baby is kicking and moving, but I'm not feeling it alot. I'm not sure if she's just kicking mostly toward the inside so it's not as noticeable or if I have anterior placenta or what...guess I'll find out on Thursday. I know she's moving constantly, cuz everytime I have an u/s, she's all over the place...and I can't really feel it much then, either. Of course, she is only like 1 lb right now, lol. I've officially started the "waddle-walk", it's not a full blown waddle yet, but definitely has some waddle like qualities. I'm starting to get a little uncomfortable, but I love it! Everytime I look at myself and see how huge I am, I just smile...I'm just so happy I've made it this far already. I had no doubts about the viability of this pregnancy, of course, I knew the Progesterone was doing it's job and had no reason to worry. It still feels great to finally be at this point again, though. I love being pregnant. When Sailor first told his friend's wife, she said "I bet she's miserable", he said "no, she likes being pregnant". This girl was pregnant with me with Princess and is pregnant with me again...both unplanned. I couldn't believe she said that, though. I'm thinking "I've lost 3 babies, why in the world would I be miserable to be pregnant?!" I'm definitely not taking anything for granted, I'm so thankful.

Stressed!

We applied for a loan on the 15th or 16th...and we're STILL waiting for the money! It's a home equity loan and it's been approved, we're just waiting on the home equity department to set up the appraisal. So today, after finding out that my account hasn't even been assigned to anyone in that dept yet, and they're really swamped, and it could take 2 weeks...we decided to call another bank. We applied for a home equity line of credit and thought that it would only take 3 days...but then they called back and said it usually takes 7-10 days, but they'd try to rush it. I needed this money weeks ago! We've already started packing stuff up, we've already started painting...but we have no money to get the storage unit or the new flooring or anything. We have newspaper and boxes all over the place. I'm just so sick of living like this. This is the longest moving process ever, I just want to get it over with!

On the hormonal note...I'm extremely emotional lately. I cry over the stupidest things, but I just can't help it. Ugh! I thought it was supposed to ease up a little during the 2nd trimester. I seriously feel like I just skipped the 2nd trimester and went straight to the 3rd...I'm still peeing all the time, I'm still over-emotional, I feel huge.

Frustrated

I know it shouldn't bother me, I shouldn't care what people think, but it really bothers me when people say they don't like the name we picked out. We obviously love the name or we wouldn't have chosen it for our daughter, so why would someone tell us that they don't like it? Do they think we'll change our minds because they don't like it? Are they trying to hurt our feelings? I just don't get it. My mom taught me that if I didn't have anything nice to say, not to say anything at all...yet she is constantly saying mean things! She's made it pretty clear that she's not Sailor's biggest fan and now says she doesn't like the name. When I told it to her yesterday, she said "ick" in response to the middle name. Why would she say that?! She said that the first name was pretty, but then today said that it doesn't sound very feminine. What? How is it not feminine? I just don't get it. For those that don't know, the name we picked is Havyn (or Haven, not sure on the spelling yet) Elaine. Elaine is Sailor's Mom's middle name. Princess has my middle name, which is also my Mom's middle name. We didn't really name her after me and my Mom, but I did love that she had the same middle name as both of us. I didn't set out to give my daughters names with meaning, my goal was to give them names that I love. But, if it works out that way, I think it's great. I really like both of my girls' first and middle names. I would never choose either of their middle names as first names, but think they're a great fit for the first name. I don't know why it bothers me so much, but it really does. Why can't she just not say anything at all? Why can't she just say "It'll take some getting used to" instead of saying she doesn't like it? I think it's a generational thing. I obviously am not going to like the same things as my parents and their generation...but that doesn't mean that what I like is bad or what they like is bad, we just have different tastes. I'm really bummed about it, I wish I could just tell her how I feel...maybe I should email her since I'm so unconfrontational. Sorry for boring y'all, just felt like I needed to get that off my chest.

Princess(es)

So, I'm going to have another girl...she has a name, now she just needs a blog name. I don't want her to have something like "Pumpkin" when her big sister gets to be "Princess", but I don't know what would be equal to Princess...other than calling them Princess A and Princess H, which I would prefer not to do. Any suggestions?

Another U/S

I went to the Sanford Brown Institute today for my free ultrasound and the baby is definitely a girl! Sailor got a good look at the girly parts, so now we're sure and can start planning! The teacher there today kinda sucked, she's not the normal teacher. She didn't turn the screen for me, so I could barely see a thing, and she wouldn't tell me the sex of the baby. She said that they're not doctors, so they're not allowed to tell, due to liability reasons. She also didn't give me any pictures. Ugh. One of the students walked us out and told us that it's a girl, and Sailor said that he saw it, too. She said that it was the lady's first day teaching that class, but the normal teacher turns the screen, gives lots of pictures, and will tell the sex of the baby, but not write it on the u/s picture. I wish the normal teacher would've been there, but at least I got my confirmation! I know my dr said he was 99% sure last week, but he couldn't get a very good pic of it, and Sailor couldn't tell, so I really wanted an extra u/s.

Happy!

Today is Sailor's LAST day at work! Yay! I'm so happy! He got his check-out papers on Wednesday and checked out all day yesterday and is now checking out at his last place (they have to check out of medical, dental, duty section, etc...all separate). He still has to work at the restaurant tonight and tomorrow, but when he leaves base today (it should be within the next hour, I'd think), he's done! After tomorrow, he's done at the restaurant, too, and won't have to work again until he gets to Greece (in a month). Okay, he just called, he's on his way home! I'm so happy to have him to myself for a month, but I'm starting to wish I wouldn't have agreed to Greece. I keep trying to tell myself that it's the best decision for us, financially, and it's good for his career to serve overseas...but I'm really gonna miss him, and I know Princess is, too. I hate that I can't always have what I want. Every time I choose one thing, it means I have to sacrifice something else...I don't want to sacrifice! I also really want to start working, I think it'll be much better for myself and for Sailor if I'm working...but then it means that I won't be home with the kids all the time. I hate that, it's like everything's a lose-lose. Sailor could get out of the Navy and I could finally have a normal life and home, but then we'd lose our insurance and benefits. I could've refused to let him go to Greece, but then we'd still be broke all the time. LOL, I somehow just depressed myself, this post started out happy. I've been looking forward to this day for so long, but now that it's here, it just means he's leaving soon.