Scrapbooking!

I went over to Jaws's to scrapbook tonight. I think we each got 3 pages done! We're also both out of page protectors, and I wasn't planning on placing a CTMH order til September or October (I wanna save up and make it a big one). CTMH has the best price on page protectors, and the best quality, but I might have to buy some from Wal-Mart to get me by til I can order some. We both LOVE the stamps. I'm not too sure about the new ink pads yet, though, they're kinda hard to open. I have got to get the rolling carry-all, I have way too much stuff! My tote is sooo full, and HEAVY!

WTH???

So, Sailor comes into the bedroom this morning, turns on the light, and starts opening and closing all the drawers, and searching the closet (loudly). "What are you looking for?" "My Navy shirt with the seal on it." "Okay, I'll help look." We search the house, while he yells about how he can never find anything in this house (directed at me). I suggest that it could be in the car or in his locker at work. "It's not in my locker." He goes outside, I keep looking. "Hey! I found it!" "Where was it?" "In the car." LMAO! He woke me up with a bright light, starts yelling and cussing cuz he's late (he didn't inform me yesterday that he needed the shirt today, or I woulda tried to find it then), and it's not even in the house. He never brought it home from work, he left it in the car, as usual. He always does this! He'll search the house, blaming me cuz he can't find it, and I'll suggest looking in the car, and that's where it is. Shit! I just realized, I think he forgot to take the carseat out of the car. (I just looked and then called to make sure, yes, he did forget, he's sorry.) Dammit! Guess no pool playdate for us today.

Working CAN be fun!

I got a job, I think I posted that somewhere. Anyway, I'll be working for the same company as PurpleMama, just a different location. I'll be checking patients in and getting their info and all that for an urgent care facility. I'll also be selling Close to my Heart products. I'm so excited about both of these new jobs! With the medical one, I'll get something current for my resume, it'll get me out of the house, I'll be making money, and I'll be doing something active with my brain! With Close to my Heart, I'll have the opportunity to learn alot more about scrapbooking, and I'll get a discount on all of the wonderful products that I LOVE! I can't wait to get started! I went over to Scrapping Momma's house to learn more about being a consultant. She went over everything with me, I learned alot, and then we went to Starbucks, where she bought us both a celebratory Mocha Frappuccino. Yum! The service was sloooooooooow, and it was cold inside, but we got a chance to wind down and talk some more.

Baby Shower!

I am planning a baby shower for Jaws, and her best friend is co-hosting with me. The three of us met yesterday and had lunch and then went to Books-A-Million to make some plans. Me and Jaws, of course, had our Mocha Frappe's! Yum! We got alot done! We picked the place, the date, the time, and the food. We still need to get together and pick out invitations and write them out, but we have a basic idea of what's gonna be on the invitations. After that, we went to Wal-Mart and created a baby registry. It was so much fun! I love shopping and not spending any money! LOL Actually, I did spend a little money, I got a rear view mirror to attach under the regular one so that I can see Princess while I'm driving, and I got some nail polish for myself, and some shampoo for Naala. It was a pretty fun day, I can't wait to get together with them again!

Coffee Night!

Last night was Coffee Night with the Playgroup. We went to Books-a-Million and we all had Mocha Frappe's from Joe Muggs. Yum! I bought a board book for Princess (for only $1), it's called Dolphin in the Sea. She loves it. She was so excited when I read it to her this morning. And then she kept saying dolphin over and over again after I left her with the book. I also got a book for myself last night. Me and Jaws went to the library before Coffee Night, and I got Little Earthquakes. The Playgroup has a book club and this is my first month joining it, so that's the book that they're reading this month. I'm so excited about it! It was late when I got home last night, so I haven't gotten started on it yet.


ETA: I finished Little Earthquakes Saturday night. Great book and easy read!

Kinda Ironic

About 8 months ago, I decided to get off the pill and try to get pregnant. I wanted a belly buddy, though, so I tried to talk a couple friends into joining me. They weren't all that interested. 2 months later, I got pregnant! No preggo friends, but that's okay. Then I lost the baby. And now, a few of my friends are pregnant and I want to join them. I'm so happy for them, but I'm impatiently waiting for my turn and hoping that they don't all have their babies before I even get pregnant again. I took an ovulation predictor today and it was positive, so we'll see. I just might join them soon.

Good Day!

I was in a much better mood today. Princess was a little whiney, but no big deal, nothing that lunch and a nap didn't fix. Me and Jaws went out for coffee last night, and I got a much more positive outlook on everything. I'm going to start exercising, start taking vitamins and try not to get down so easily. We were reading People last night and there was an article on a bunch of women that lost weight. It was called Half their size. Anyway, all these women are now about my size. They lost all that weight to get to my size. So that makes me feel much better about my weight. Obviously I'm not THAT overweight if women are wanting to be the same weight that I'm at now.

Today's Appointment...

I'm back. It didn't go as well as I hoped. I waited in the waiting area for 45 minutes and then was moved to the exam room where I waited over 30 more minutes! Why do they ask you to get there 15 minutes early and then make you wait almost an hour and a half? I was there for 2 hours total! Ugh! Anyway, he won't give me anti-depressants because I'm not on birth control and am still wanting to get pregnant. He said getting a job might help, which I just did, I'm just waiting for my first day. About my irregular cycles, there's nothing we can do. Instead of running all these tests, we're just waiting. I'm so sick of feeling like this. I don't want to have to take birth control to feel normal. I don't trust birth control. I'm tired of having no energy, I'm tired of being emotional and having these constant mood swings. I just don't know what to do. Oh, and while I was at the Dr's office, Sailor was on the phone with his dad and he made plans for us to go there on Friday. Friday night is Mom's Night Out. So now I can't go to MNO. And today was actually going good. Oh well.

Me - A-Z

A - Act your age - 25

B - Breast size - 36D

C - Chore you hate - Mopping!

D - Dad's name - Andrew (Andy)

E - Essential makeup item - Ummm, none. Maybe lip gloss.

F - Favorite singer - I'm not too picky, I like most music.

G - Gold or silver - Gold (only cuz I'm allergic to silver)

H - Hometown - Born in Ft Lauderdale, FL but mostly grew up in Lake City, FL.

I - IceCream - Chocolate

J - Job title - Mom!

K - Kisses, what kind do you prefer - Any kiss from Sailor or Princess!

L - Living arrangements - Own a house.

M - Meat, favorite kind - Beef

N - Number of kiddos - 1, a beauiful 18 month old daughter.

O - Overnight hospital stays - Just to deliver my daughter.

P - Packing habits - Pretty much just the essentials.

Q - Quote that you love -

R - Religion -

S - Siblings - 1 brother, he's 22.

T - Time you get up in the morning - 7:30-8:00

U - Underwear of choice - thong

V - Vegetable you can't stand - spinach

W - Worst habit - Being too hard on myself

X - Xrays - Chest and Foot

Y - Yummy food you make - Spaghetti!

Z - Zodiac sign - Cancer!

(Stolen from Java Mama and Thumblina.)

More issues...

I called and made my appointment for tomorrow! I hope they can do something to make me feel normal. Seems like I only feel normal if I'm pregnant or on birth control, but I refuse to take birth control again.

To add to my stress, we have no money for the next 2 weeks because the Navy failed to mention that when I set up an allotment, it takes the money out twice a month, but only gives it to you once a month. So now our spending money is gone. I'm hoping Sailor will let me take some money out of savings so that we're not broke for the next 2 weeks. If not, no Mom's Night Out for me!

~Blue

Why am I here?

I have been having problems with depression, which I recently found out is Postpartum Depression. I didn't just have a baby, I have an 18 month old and have been extremely happy since her birth. But, I had a miscarriage a few months ago and have been depressed ever since. Anyway, I feel like crap. I feel completely worthless. I have moments when I'm as happy as can be, and then others when I want to lay in bed all day and not move. I have nothing to be sad about, really. I'm happy with my life. It's just hormonal imbalances, I guess. I'm just having major mood swings and my hormonal craziness is causing depression. It sucks. Hopefully they can do something to help me, I'll be calling my doctor today to set up an appointment. Thanks for reading.

~Blue